Today is hard; I am leaving a place and people I have come to love. I am also going to a place I love, and people I also Love. Its funny my heart was broken today but GOD has a way of always mending my broken heart. I am going to write my prayer right now “Father/ Mother of Light and Truth, I pray that you lead me and guide me in arms of your Angel’s. Please allow me to forever seek your will and Grace. May I be delivered of all those things that take me to dark corners of my mind? Take the pieces of my heart that need mending, and replace them with all your Light and Grace. Ride with me as you always have, and show me the signs along the way, so I may not be lost in the emptiness of my soul. May I forever remember to share the goodness of the best parts of me, and not the dark parts of my being? Show me and lead the path, guide my heart and teach me to love the pieces that break, for there is where your Grace truly lives. AMEN “.
Peace Out: M copyright2014

All my life I suppressed and oppressed my feelings, stuffing them down deep inside me and tried to manage, without having tools to accomplish forward motion. I also practiced omission and not being able to tell myself the truth, could not face my own defects, I lived on my own lie. Learning to live on an honest premise and principles is a great task for a lifelong liar, and consummate cheat. Deceiving ourselves or living an illusion is the basic idea that we Alcoholics thrive on, we must believe our own lies, to live in the denial of our disease. I oppressed the truth until I drove my mind and body to the edge, all with contempt and judgment for everything in my path, which left me in such a depression, I lost light. Living without hope is a miserable existence, there ceases to even be a reason to continue, this is where addictions of self-fulfillment left me. Everything I lived on in the past had to change, there were no more lies I could believe. I was taught a new way that was based on learning to remove dishonest motives, this is always a moment to moment process, and my lies to myself are the true enemy. I pray each day for the principle of honesty becomes the replacement of dishonesty. Telling me the truth is the key to my sobriety, everything depends on this principle, and my humanity depends on it.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014