Because we are Alcoholics it is difficult for us to take directions, it’s against our nature. Most of us were not great at working with others. When it is suggested that we find someone to help us through the steps, the anxieties begin, no matter what shape were in. When we first look at what we are being asked to do, most get hung up at the first the four steps, and completely disagree at the 5th, about sharing with another our secrets. I knew from experience that alcohol and drugs had power over me, but because I continued to manage some outside pieces of my life, I could not understand the unmanageability. With all the other parts of the steps, I needed help and direction too. I had to be taught humility through steps 8 and 9. It was through people who were willing to work with me that taught me how to do the things I needed to do, and continue to do, with steps 10, 11, and 12. When I talk with someone new i encourage that they find someone to help them work and find the direction to change, and become a person who learns to work with others. This is important on 2 levels, 1st we learn to take direction, 2nd we learn to hear God’s direction. Thank you for making a 12 step call on me.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014

When I started the recovery process, i was in a constant state of confusion. My body and my mind were in complete chaos. I had no real spiritual concept that made sense. My mind and body did not understand what was going on, and my question was why? I know there was chatter going on but I was only able to hear a few selected things. But I instinctively knew I had nowhere to go, except where I was, which was in a seat in the rooms of AA. There is great freedom in only doing what is in front of you. There are no decisions to be made except the decision to have hope. Hope was the catalyst to be willing to start to change the defects created by contempt, ego, pride and, dishonesty. As I began to utilize the tools presented, the confusion subsided and good orderly direction began to chip away the effects of the defects. This is always a work in progress. God does for me what I can’t do for myself, and helps me to do things I can do for me.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014