The greatest gift in my life has been all those who have touched me in some way. As I look back, I have so many memories of those who I thought I had picked to be friends, but I came to the realizations that it wasn’t me who chose them, it was God who placed them in front of me. I can look back and see the lessons I learned for all. Every day and night I pray that I hear a message of depth and weight, and that I can love those that are placed in front of me. Loving is a constant challenge, because there are those who bring fear in to their space, that pushes any love that comes at them away, so my first reaction is to withdraw or view them with passive aggression, at that moment I must remember the code of love and tolerance, and the principle of unconditional love. Having practiced the spiritual principles for years, once I see that aggression presents itself I must, wring myself in and surround me with the steps and principles. I’ve been told that pause when agitated, learning that pause statement, has been a wonderful tool to enter the door of unconditionally loving others. The information that has been given and delivered, has been the key to learning and finding some degree of emotional sobriety, finding emotional sobriety has given me a daily reprieve, and that daily reprieve and emotional sobriety is based on my connection to a power Greater than me and for me, I call it God, and it has been said God is love. There is no perfection in me, just flaws created by actions that are outside of these principles, if I can pause long enough the possibility that the forward actions may correct the things in me that I can only correct by pausing and seeking. I am truly blessed to have been given keys to a kingdom that exist in that 4th dimension of God’s will not mine.
Peace Out: M Copyright 2014

Every day I write, I share only what I feel. This is not me trying to be profound, or thinking I have any wisdom. There is only a deep sense of emotion and honest hope that I have in my heart. My feelings are that we all have a need to touch and reach some higher energy in life. Some of us get lost, hurt, and damaged, along our way and we go inward, to that place with no hope or light, into that room of isolation, and for me that is a painful, fearful, selfish, and a scary place. This is why I write, and am willing basically, to share my life with all; it is out of need not wisdom. The lives I have to live are one of honesty with myself, and watch my intents, judgments, and assumptions. I had to learn this by hard work and experiencing failures, and successes, loss and gains. The lessons of having to constantly seek, listen, and watch for ego, pride, and absorb the teachings of trying to relinquishing my will, to God’s will. I am one of the most undisciplined, self-centered people I have known, and I have been blessed to know thousands in my time here on this planet, and I am not shearing this from ego or pride, but from experience. So I want all to know why I do this and I know I have to deal with others assumptions, criticisms, and the appreciations. I know if we stay dormant in this journey, it leads to stagnation, and that leads to possible tragic behavior. No matter how long I stay sober, I still have to do what I was told to do in the beginning, which was to put down everything on paper, and in this day and age, we have technology and media, and I thank those who taught me to just drop the rock, and make them pebbles, these thoughts are the fragments that are there. The experience of taking the actions and staying out of the results means to me, that I just do it and leave the outcome to God.
Peace Out: M Copyright 2014