Some of you may or may not understand the musical concept of finding one, finding the one is when your lost in a piece of music, and not able to find your place in the rhythm or time signature, that’s called finding one. Searching for the mathematical equation that leads you to where you should be in the music; this happens in both chord and timing, when performing a piece of music, for me as a percussionist, I must know where the one chord and the one in rhythm are. I also equate this to my sobriety and living, when I find, I am out of sync I must find the one, sometimes I can be twisted in my conception of events that present themselves to me, just like music can. I relate everything to music, even God, I must find that center in the universal oneness, so I can find my place in the music of my life, I know that everyone may not relate to this, but I think our humanity must have song. If we look at any tribal experiences, it has always been communicated through the emotions expressed in our human chant. The thing that centers me the most, is to know that someone cares, I hear it around the rooms, “I don’t give a shit what anyone thinks”, I myself have said it, and that’s not TRUE, I do care, why because we are born caring. Anyone who has raised children knows, and even if you haven’t, we all were children, and what we wanted the most was for someone to care for us. So what I am trying to say is that knowing you care and finding the one that lives in all of us, is the most important thing to this crazy old musician, who loves to love, cares to care, and has to have the ONE in his life, and that I have in a power Greater Than Me, that has shown me more grace, more love, and more truth, in the song we sing together, even when we are all twisted by the rhythm and the notes, of each of our own music. This is what the 12 steps have given me and I live in the gratitude for that GRACE shown me through the care and love in the harmony of the 12 Principals.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014

All my life I longed for friendship, having traveled to so many places since I was a child, I always had to work for friendship. There were many who I tried to reach out to, usually those who were outside of the “click”, those who didn’t fit in. I really am sympathetic to those who are bullied, or teased, which withdraw and feel alone, I felt this, I know it, and still have to push through those familiar feelings. Sometimes the people we let in can bring out good behavior and bad behavior in us, we make wrong choices out of need and wanting to fit in and belong. Because of the feelings that no matter what I tried I just didn’t seem to fit led me to isolation. When I stepped into the rooms of recovery, I found that I was not alone with these feelings, and there were others that actually had made choices, based on the same feelings. I started to learn how to reach out and tried to drop all the walls, of fear, judgments, assumptions, intentions, and expectations. Expectations are still apparent in my life, when I reach out and try to help and love someone, I put a lot of effort into befriending people, and this opens me up to heartbreak. When this happens today I have to remember that God has placed them in my life for me to be taught some lesson in life, and to be aware of the fact, that no one breaks my heart but me, and if I allow this to happen, that I am moving away from God’s purpose, which is just to let love in. I am always amazed how my Higher Power places lessons in my life and who brings them to me.
Peace Out: Michael copyright
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