I read once that the heart is the commander; it is the key to every function in our body and mind, without it, life as we know it ceases. I have also heard it said, “I had my heart broken”, but the heart does not break, we tend to think that when we suffer devastating losses our emotions become so painful we that we cannot endure, or don’t want to endure. It’s not the heart that breaks, it’s the mind that breaks, my outlook on life is challenged, and it wants to believe that something is breaking, but it is only my perception, because of the fact that I invested parts of myself, and when those parts are rejected I grieve the loss. Our natural instinct is to survive; it’s only when we give up, that the mind can override that instinct. So when I say that loving hurts to much, what I am actually saying is that you do not love me the way I think you should and this blocks any future possibilities of finding the true meaning of love itself, that true love is just as instinctive as survival. Our humanness needs to be able to connect with each other, creating the bonding necessary to feel the emotion of love, but it is only when we learn to love, that the thought in order for love to survive and transcend time, I must learn the ideology and principle in loving without conditions, this is a lifelong process and I pray every day, that I learn that principle.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014

I don’t always understand where the curves in the road are taking me because I can’t see them, the twist is too angled to see the depth of the curve. All I’ve ever done when the curve is deep is set my eye toward the middle line and follow. You have to be very perceptive to make sure you react to the oncoming traffic that’s headed your way. My life has had many of these deep curves, but the problem lies in the fact, that it wasn’t that the road was twisted it was me. Lessons don’t come easy for me, I am constantly in a state of flux, but the beauty of this is that I’ve learned, that when you get too comfortable in your complacent path, your vision becomes as blinded as in those deep twists. For me I believe that my God wants me not to get to narrow or complacent, I believe that in that constant state of flux I have to stay open minded, to the oncoming traffic, so I don’t become to self-righteous or too blinded by my complacency and judgmental righteousness. Life for me must never become to serene to see that the universe has direction and chaos, order and anarchy, Love and hatred, all I have to do to deal with any of these is to watch for the curves, and look for the center lines. Thank you God for not making my life easy and allowing me to see the beauty in this entire twisted universe.
Peace Out: M Copyright 2014