There are so many challenges down this road and every one of us has experienced those days. It seems sometimes that things are never going to change and no one understands, this leads us to depression and fear. I have spent so many days in this place, which was a great reason to drink drug, and I have spent many days there sober to. The difference between the two is when I was drinking the only way out was oblivion, in sobriety the way out is hope, and I often have to work hard to find that hope. I’ve been told that faith without works is dead, and no matter what I have to go to the only place, where hope lies for me. That place is when I start talking with someone that is more stuck than me, and through our moments together, the blessing of hope appears. They told me this in the Big Book, when everything else fails work with another Alcoholic. It’s an amazing healing process, how two individuals working together can heal broken and hurt people. I am so blessed to recognize this in myself, that I must help to be helped, this is the greatest gift I have been given, no matter how lost I can be in life, life will all return by serving or fellow brothers and sisters. Thank you the Spirit of Spirits.
Peace Out: M

Living, a great deal of my past was rooted in dishonest intentions. Lying was first nature to me, everything I did was built on this foundation, couldn’t function without it. With the first principle being honesty, it created a dilemma that didn’t have a resolution, or so it seemed that way at that moment. The person I lied to the most was me, I had created illusions, and lived in these distortions, so when I started to read about the mindset of the Alcoholic in the Big Book, it started to teach me about my nature and how it was saturated with dishonesty. The recognition of this Spiritual Principle created a new path for me, but I have had to work at honesty every moment, I must or I will deceive myself. This actual impossibility to stop telling untruths became possible because of the second principle open mindedness; I had been open enough to see that I didn’t have all the answers. This was also a doorway to the reduction of ego, and believing in something much greater than I, this principle for me was key to unlocking the door, which was like looking behind the curtain, and seeing the magician that created the lie, me. Learning to take actions to effect change, takes the deepest t level of honesty, having to witness that I deceived myself, is healing and powerful, it has become my life’s work which I am thoroughly grateful for, and gives me hope that a fool rooted in deceit can learn honest intent. Even with knowledge and good intentions I still can fall back, it just takes diligence, and conviction to stay grounded in truth, and faith. God has never given me more than I can handle, by revealing to me the truth that is created in living by the principles of honesty, open mindedness, and sincere willingness to change my lying self to a more truthful man. May I live grounded by these principles?
Peace Out: M