The struggle of dealing with loss, this is a commonality I think everyone shares. I hate losing , It can be on the smallest of scale of things, or to the deepest place in me. This has brought some of my most fearful moments in life. I have experienced sever rage at myself, others and God, as I understand it, loss is a complete sense of powerlessness. There have been many losses, of people places and things, and no matter what the circumstance, there are periods of grief, and that is what is the hardest emotion of all. You are in that place where you just can’t put it all together, you don’t know what you feel, how to feel, or if you should even feel. You think your numb, but in the truest part of you there’s never any numbness. We scream at it, we drink at it we, try to conceal it , we can’t let anyone in, but yet we are wanting for something to soothe, the anguish of loss.

Time sometimes heals, but it never really takes it away, something is missing, that you depended on, it’s no longer there. These are the very emotions that can make you lose faith, or completely drive you towards it.  with out believing, or hope we no longer have reason. Purpose is what has driven us to survive, centuries of human struggle and we have a reason to continue on. I know that there were many times that I wanted to just quit because, I had just lost purpose due to loss. When those moments were presented, something inside just whispered, just keep going, your going to be okay, so by the miracle of that moment , something I had lost, actually brought me more than anything I had before. So in reality, the acceptance of loss, is one of the greatest tools of the human experience, it is the catalyst to keep reaching, keep believing, keep trying, keep hoping, and keep thanking the POWER of all, for everything that was a gift in the first place. The grief of loss, is replaced, by the knowledge of the GIFT.

PEACE OUT. M

Reaching out, and asking for help when you reach that place where you can’t seem to find the strength for yourself . This is a difficult, and confusing state to be, it is contrary to all we have been taught since as far back as most of us can remember. We are taught by parents, teachers, and society, that you can do it, just push trough, this is not a bad instruction, if the person giving instructions has a healthy perspective on how to convey it. Unfortunately not all those who are instructors, know how to mentor maturing individuals, the person teaching, may have issues from their past, that have not been addressed.   Molding minds, young or even adult, is an art form, which makes it hard when you have been told to go out and be successful, and that success is based on doing it yourself. What happens to those who don;t, or do achieve? Either way without healthy balance , it can lead to a misguided life which can lead to a place  of disaster to the instincts.  So these messages we received in the past, put us at odds with knowing how to reach out, we end up in, rehabilitation centers, bars, back-ally’s , spiraling because we are too proud, or too ashamed  to ask for help. Sometimes, maybe family tries to intervene, or courts, institutions, friends, but because of that pride or self esteem, we push it away. So many of us die because we are so broken, because we can’t seem to handle it, we have lost faith in everything.

  Those  who have experienced this in past and present , have sacrificed so much  of themselves, too just find the courage to do that one simple act, surrendering to the fact that we needed help, and then carry that message forward! Without that first act of acknowledgement, we may not find the courage to face what needs to come next, which is opening our minds to remove the contempt of all things, and replace it with the hope that comes from the power of trusting. Courage to remove all those old ideas, messages, instructions of the past, that will change our future, these things are the spiritual experience that leads, to a greater consciousness and awareness, of all that is, and surrounds us, which is seeing the gift of our life and how special that gift can be. All that is ours, if can just find the humility to say, I NEED YOUR HELP BECAUSE I CAN”T DO THIS ALONE. Thanks for carrying that message to me.

PEACE OUT!  M