The image we portray must be aligned with the true thoughts we have. It does not benefit our souls if the two are not synchronized. When any piece of our being is not interacting with the other, we are distorting the image we think, or trying to portray. We see so many times, when tragedy happen, neighbors always saying “well they always seemed to be nice people”, this was an image of what they were portraying, but it was not the reality. Few of us are really showing our true side to everyone, we are afraid, that by exposing our true nature, we will be judged, or rejected. I also know that there have been times that what I wanted, or the image that I saw in my head, was untrue. I so desperately wanted to be something on the outside, that did not represent my inside, and this created very conflicted thought. The process to align the images was a lengthy, and arduous task, it first started with coming to understand “what” I was, and I had to surrender to all prior thoughts of what I thought I was, and realize the truth about me. When I understood what that was, I needed to know how to change; armed with the truth I could find the real image to recreate into one cohesive person. This became a long period of reconstruction, and education, and came at great cost, and dedication. This had to be something I really wanted, I had to be prepared to do whatever it took to find whatever the truth would be.
After many years of searching to find answers, and many spiritual experiences or awareness, which I can only see through hindsight, I came to understand that I JUST AM. That I don’t need to align anything anymore, the truth is that I need to be open to life, and accept the gifts I have, and align myself with the power of the universe. There is no more portraying and image making, all there is, is to be happy and who I am. The honest me may not be pretty, but it’s all I have, and I try to give it the best shot, I can. If we are made in perfection, then why do I have to present a distorted view, of what I think they want me to be. One simple principle, HONESTY, of who I am, what I am, and what my God wants me to be, is the continued search. If my heart is true, my intentions good, my faith is unshakeable, and my ears and eyes open, I just might just turn out to be REAL and not an image.

MESSAGE FROM A FRIEND
I heard recently a quote from a friend; she said that “sometimes the hurt and the healer collide”. I have knowledge from my own experience, just how true that is. People finding themselves in serious pain, will shun the truth, of what the solution is to heal their pain. We lack the faith to accept what the Healer tells us, I so desperately fear that I will lose control, or hear something I don’t want to hear. So instead of just facing up to what I need to do to solve things, I would rather run. I have so many male friends, who are deathly afraid of having checkups, because they want to live in the denial that they have a problem, and that they can macho through, and then create a bigger problem than before. We are not alone; women too have the same issues, but their fears, emotions, and denials are much different than men. The point here is, that many of us have that common response when it comes to hearing the healing facts, no matter which the healer is, the fear of the hurt, collides with the wisdom of the healing solution.
My personal experience with this concept, led me down the path to serious consequences, which I could have prevented, by simple truth. It all boils down to really not searching for truth with in me. Here I sit, past the point of no return, and I hear my friends quote loud and clear. The entire reason I write, is in the hope that someone can hear my story, and hopefully rectify their present, and not have to hurt themselves, in their future. My life is dedicated to this, because I didn’t get as far down this road by chance, it was all by grace and a message. That was, that I didn’t have to live the way I was living if I didn’t want too anymore, which was in the pain of my own existence, I truly have a beautiful life because of that message.
Peace Out: M