There are so many distractions that take my focus away from things that I should keep my focus on. There are so many things to think about, kids, cars, media, money, opposite sex, wives, Job. All these things are valid in our daily lives, struggling day after day, yet these are things I created in my search to survive. Now I know that all these things are stresses for the most part, my wife doesn’t stop pushing me , my kids forever want something, my dog dumps on the floor, my boss is an asshole, I don’t make enough money, and on it goes. What I have come to realize is that these are things I thought I wanted or needed, and now that when I had them, I made them burdens instead of thinking of them as gifts, and when I had them I wanted something different. Now that I am without most of those things, I know what there value is, funny there’s a saying “you don’t miss your water until your well goes dry”, how true but there is another way to go.

I must remember that a great deal of things are made up from my imagination. True somethings are gone but, for me so much has been given me in return. I have a foundation rooted in spirit and light, I been given friendship and support, I can make good choices, I get what I need everyday, the power has been good to me, because I asked and I have received. There is power for all of us if we just reach for it and find the humility to reduce our ego enough to find understanding, that if I just get out of my way and not be distracted by all the things out there, that there is a whole universe to discover within. This information was so freely given me, by those who came before and left for us to receive. Peace and Love M

Dealing with UN-manageability of our life is a very hard thing to see, from the time we’re children we are being taught to deal with things. Having to really see just how unmanageable my life was, and is an enormous task no matter of the fact that it was staring me in the face. You know I had worked all of my life I managed to survive, but I didn’t realize manipulation was not managing, putting my marriage and my children lives and future in jeopardy, was not manageability, I didn’t see that going from job to job was not managing, risking my life and health was not managing, spending money on useless things was not managing, dreaming or assuming things were going to happen was not managing, these were very vivid signs but I failed to recognize them.

It took and takes doing a very through, moral, and FEARLESS look  at myself everyday to see even the not manageable things going on in the present. Day after day I have to take hard looks at my motives, thoughts and actions to see what I can, and can’t manage today. Some may say that maybe I should just relax, but the truth is that the only real peace I have is to look deep in me to clear away things so that I can be prepared to help others which is the only way I can find real spirituality. The gift is that, this is my journey and I am truly grateful that my creator has given me a true task of managing to see his/her will for me and the knowledge,  to see that managing today is centered in exhausting everything I have left in trying to find manageability of the things I make difficult. No one does this to me or for me, the responsibility is mine. That is truly what manageable means to me today. Peace M