I am trying to set a blog up so I can continue writing. Please note that my writing is a way to keep my recovery going and trying to carry a message. I no longer sponsor because of the EGO aspect of that for me, because though the years I have learned that I would rather be a friend to those who need a friend that they can trust, then someone who tells you how to do something that you need to learn yourself and for yourself, I can guide you though the process but it’s up to us to figure out how it fits in our life or the life we create after. Whatever it sounds like I am not writing from a point that I am checking out,

I am trying to express that for all of us, life really is moment to moment, and for me I know that God has handed me more time and it’s a gift Even if it is another 20 it would be short because I love the beauty that it has been for me, and I have been allowed to experience. I thank everyone of you past and present for the gift of friendship, and love you have blessed me with, also for the support of you that read. I am not a technologist but I think there will be a link though facebook were you can access if you choose to continue but always know that I am writing as third person being affected by the first and second guy.

I don’t need you to ever think that:
A.) I don’t believe in a “power greater than me).
B.) I am looking for attention or sympathy.
C.) I am checking out.

I believe that my mission now is to reach out as far and wide as I can to make a difference to the community of us, no matter how much time I have to expose my heart.
I have no fear or the truth of how twisted and damaged I became and that you can hurt me with that knowledge. I have caused myself everything that has and will happen the responsibility is mine.

God carries me when I was unable to carry myself. May you hear and see the angels and have a hand to hold. My good friend Theresa James says “May you never make a bed out in the cold”. I love you —– M “Big Fifty” Peace out.

Things that are written are written in black in white but are not to be taken out of context for what the face value is — if you can’t find deeper meaning then don’t read. I write from my personal experience but as a third person of myself. For those of you who think I don’t let go and let God are misreading what i am saying and truly don’t know me. All I have done in the past few years is let go, I have nothing left but to let go. If you can’t understand that then please stop reading because I am not worth misleading you that does me more damage and I have enough to last me for whatever life I have left. I am signing off from doing this until I go to another platform where it won’t effect you or those I love. Peace out M