Isolationism is so easy to fall victim to, it’s so easy just to block things out and get lost into my own thoughts. The problem of being in our heads is where those thoughts lead me, usually I am creating something out of ego, and self-centered thoughts and what I don,t have , self serving motives, or from the point of victim and self doubt. Trying to silence those voices takes a huge amount of effort sometimes, but being lazy in nature I will sit listening to the disgruntled thoughts, until I become tired of them or in enough pain to work towards solution. I have had friends and trusted people who have encouraged me to always look to the solution and set free the problem, for this wisdom I am truly grateful.  I have to spend a great deal of time praying that I can see and hear the solution that helps in healing and silencing those fears, that has become the center of my universe and my daily task. I woke up yesterday and today acknowledging the gift of just opening my eyes.

Sometimes taking actions on things that we need to change, can be an arduous task. Here is were the sin of sloth keeps us bound to our old ways, it seems easier to just procrastinate and utilize lazy attitudes. In the past I was a master at putting off things simply because it seemed to hard or the fear of the unknown, and how to adjust to looking at things from a different perspective. Fear of change is not wanting to deal with uncomfortable feelings that are brought about within the process of changing, it’s easier to wear the same thing I wore yesterday than to look for something different. We become complacent and stubborn, even if the situation is showing every indication that it needs to be changed.  This is where learning that taking action and staying out of the results has played a big part in my life.

My learning that I really have nothing coming and that when I have expectations on the outcome of any given thing, I set myself up for disappointment, it also happens if I assume that you should do or think a certain way. Learning to trust spiritual principles, and applying them to every  situation that presents itself, is the action to finding true peace. Realizing that the only power I have is the choices I make, and the actions I take. This has been and will always be the biggest challenge I have.