There are days when I feel empty and alone. No matter where I seach in my heart I can’t connect. This is that place I call “cosmic lonliness” I feel like I just don’t belong to anything. This is a common theme for all of us. Things that can make you feel this, are anger, fear, resentment, expectations, intentions, these are things that bring depression an melancholy. These feelings are multiplied through the use of drugs and alcohol, but after you remove them, you are left with an emotional mess that doesn’t have a clue, of how to resolve the dilemma. Here is where the contact with an outside entity, another person who is veresed with working knowledge of the 12 steps, can guide us back to the inner contact of the Spiritual light that is waiting for illumination. The principles behind the steps are the rules that lead us to that power greater than us, and it’s in that power that we find a place in our hearts that can heal the emptiness of our lonely nature. Without those guiding principles I would have missed so much of that place in my heart, where I carry the unity that was so freely given. Thanks for the 12step call.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014

So many times I have gotten tired of going to the same meetings, listening to the shares, seeing the same faces, day after day. I ask myself guestions, like why am I here, should I go to a different meeting, then after the committee shuts up, the whisper speaks, “you’re here because you’re an Alcoholic.” Then the message starts to filter through strangely through the same people, the same meeting, and then through the newcomer. You are here because of your need to LISTEN, for the message that is being given to you so freely. It’s not them or it, it is me as always. My judgements, my expectations, and my need to remember that recovery lives in unity, and service, not the thoughts in my head. An oldtimer told me once when I was complaining, he said “so what did you bring to the meeting other than your judgement and contempt. I know that I can only get what I put into it. The real message is in the Power Greater than me, that comes through, cleaning my house of the defects that stand in my way and trusting the power of God, and learn to serve others. Thank you for making a 12 step call on me.
Peace Out. M copyright 2014