I didn’t have to have a special reason to drink, just the fact that I was awake was a good enough reason. However there were real special times, like holidays, birthdays, weddings, anniversaries, independence day and it didn’t matter whose independence, it was just a reason. These days seemed to give me even more license to drink at will without fear or shame, it was just what your supposed to do, celebrate and so I did. Except for me, the celebration never stopped. I got sober in October the day after my birthday so that first year was very awkward. When Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years came around I had to find a new way to handle my new life. I went to as many meetings as possible, and sometimes all day and night marathons, this was the only way I survived and stayed sober. I was on the phone, and in members homes trying to just cope with having left my real love ALCOHOL. I say this to the new person, that we must hold on during these times until we learn, and adjust to our new found life and discover a new way to celebrate, sober, clean, and happy. Please if you find yourself in that place of being unsure of where to turn, grab another one of us and tell us that you’re in a fight with your disease, say it clear, honestly, without fear or shame, We have all been there at some point and time. Have yourself a very Merry Celebration, Sober!
Peace Out: M copyright 2014

I talk with you and you speak your pain
Nothing I say seems to take it away
I reach out and try to ease you doubt
but your doubt still exists
What do I need to say that has meaning
How do I reach the true voice inside that makes you listen
I extend my hand to help you reach
But you say to me, it’s to far
How much further do I extend my heart
To pull you from the darkness that is your experience
To just lift you enough where you can climb
I don’t have the answers I just know where I’ve been
All I can do is just repeat what was repeated to me
Seek and you will find
Walk and let the journey guide you
Ask questions and let yourself be taught
Learn that it is all inside of you
waiting for you to hold the true value
Of the gift you are
If you weren’t worth the effort God wouldn’t have spent the time
To bury the beauty inside your heart for you to to find
So one day you can talk with someone in pain
And try to reach them and tell them the place you’ve been
Peace Out: M copyright 2014