Remember That Face

Part 1.
I have to remember those days that I woke up and looked in the mirror and saw a man that I really didn’t like before. The times that I would look and see myself and feel remorse and shame of something I had done, or how low I felt. Then fear would set in on how I would find what I had to do for that day. My mind would scramble for answers and clarity, but I had to just bluff my way through each moment hoping to get through. I have to always remember those last days when all the plates were falling around me. Terror, bewilderment, fear, doubt, lieing, grasping, surrounded me.

Part 2.
Now I just wake up and look at a man who try’s to work on action that will move me forward. Looking for a deeper sense of being, asking a Power that I don’t understand, to guide me through. I ask that I can learn to love, be loved, and find beauty in this gift of life. I ask that I not spend my time in wasted will, but to find what the true sense of will. These days the mirror only reflects the image of a man I used to be, and the man I work to be today. I am blessed to have been taught lessons of spiritual weight and purpose to not take from life, but to give life to the life I have been so graciously given, by 12 simple rules that I try to apply to my everyday living.
Peace Out: M 2015

Never Stop

We must never think that we can stop applying the steps. If we are to grow away from the realization that we are always close to the forces that can drive us back to the bottle, we are in danger of the idea of relapse. For our disease is patient and clever, cunning, and baffling. Many of my peers have returned after many years of abstinence, simple because of moving away from the work it takes to quell the thirst. Life has many obstacles, our disease has only one purpose, to destroy us.
Peace Out: M 2015

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