I read a quote today that holds deep truth to me. The quote read” Pray or be a prey- –a prey to fears, futilities, to ineffectiveness”. From the time I was a child, I thought prayer didn’t work, and was a useless endeavor; nothing I ever prayed for manifested the results I was praying for. This started a path of contempt for anything other than my distorted views, or those views that I deemed agreeable with me. This led me to the isolated life of futility, ineffectiveness, and fear, which the quote points out. I just couldn’t understand how this could be effective, yet in those deep dark moments, this was always that pitiful cry, “God if you just get me out of this, one more time”, this is called the Foxhole prayer. I’ve always heard the saying “there’s no atheist’s in a Foxhole “, and I see why and how those prayers were always answered. How do I know that? I’m still here, and for what reason, the only answer I can find, and told to me by others, is to be an example of the graciousness of the Power that answered those prayers of desperation. Learning that if I wish to keep my contact, with the consciousness I must remain open and willing to pray for the reality that prayer works. This is what faith is about, I have experienced many years of doubting, which never produced anything except more doubt, and more fear. When I surrendered to the honest and humbling act, of having a conversation with a something I don’t have any proof of, or that something exists outside of the reality of, feel, see, touch, or hear, things happened that were beyond rational comprehension.
I believe there is a theory called synchronicity, which was described to me in a simple way, that there are no random acts. I believe the universe reacts in a principled way, so why doubt that there are no random events? I have learned that if I live by directed principles, the result I achieve is to live in the truth that, correct actions result in positive outcomes, if I take the incorrect actions, the outcome is negative. So as I continue on this road it becomes evident FOR ME, if I just ask for the courage to face all my pettiness, and unneeded drama, so I can attach myself, to the Power of Positive Light, I no longer am the prey of ineffectiveness, by the answered Prayed of “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference”. This PRAYER has been answered for me, I don’t know what works for others, but it damn sure has for me. See I told you my prayers work, but I do have to work for IT.
Peace Out: M

How do you go about living with yourself after years of abusing everything that you came into contact with along your way, is one of the first questions I asked, when I arrived to the rooms. Most of us, even in the surrender process, have doubts about forgiving others, or they forgiving us, for our actions in our past. So we arrive with anger or shame, victimized by both, and not knowing which one to choose to be the victim of. My experience became, that when I was directed to the tools, I needed to relieve these two afflictions, and rectify all that stood in my way, and kept me from the absolution that my soul so desperately NEEDED. It was that absolution, which made it possible for me to work towards forgiveness, and to relieve those burdens I carried, for so long, I was told to “drop the rocks, and make them into pebbles”. Learning the steps and principles, seems to be a very difficult thing to accomplish, but the truth, and faith, are the only things, that will set us free from our shame and fear. I don’t and won’t, ever believe that my God or the understanding Power is a punishing and angry entity; there is always forgiveness, as long as I’m breathing. The action taken is where the healing begins, when I move towards the light, amazingly the sun starts to shine, and when I’m in the warmth of that light, I leave the chill of darkness, self-pity and shame, outside of me. This was only made possible through action and prayer; I had that desperation of a drowning man, who needed help and direction. You go on living past the shame, past the fear, past the remorse, past self-pity by applying those spiritual acts, of forgiveness, love and tolerance. Forever learning to love, learning to care, learning to serve, and learning to reach, for the Grace of the Power, is where forgiveness begins and thrives. Thank you for the light of the universe.
Peace Out: M