I don’t always understand where the curves in the road are taking me because I can’t see them, the twist is too angled to see the depth of the curve. All I’ve ever done when the curve is deep is set my eye toward the middle line and follow. You have to be very perceptive to make sure you react to the oncoming traffic that’s headed your way. My life has had many of these deep curves, but the problem lies in the fact, that it wasn’t that the road was twisted it was me. Lessons don’t come easy for me, I am constantly in a state of flux, but the beauty of this is that I’ve learned, that when you get too comfortable in your complacent path, your vision becomes as blinded as in those deep twists. For me I believe that my God wants me not to get to narrow or complacent, I believe that in that constant state of flux I have to stay open minded, to the oncoming traffic, so I don’t become to self-righteous or too blinded by my complacency and judgmental righteousness. Life for me must never become to serene to see that the universe has direction and chaos, order and anarchy, Love and hatred, all I have to do to deal with any of these is to watch for the curves, and look for the center lines. Thank you God for not making my life easy and allowing me to see the beauty in this entire twisted universe.
Peace Out: M Copyright 2014

I have never been a list maker or a much disciplined person; it has always been a liability for me. I have gone through life, flying by the seat of my pants, always having to have my back against the wall, and then fighting my way out, but what assets I have in this position, is having a strong faith that God has always had my back. I didn’t always recognize this, because I was so self-centered in my thinking, that I believed I was in charge, I was raised with that thought. This took a long time to change, when I found recovery, I was taught, there were things that I never had power over, this was easy to see centering around addiction and alcoholism, but not easy to see on my entire life. I just couldn’t see the total un-manageability of my life at that time, but I could see it when it came to substances. Over the course of the next years, I became more and more aware of the truth of my lack of control over all things except the choices I make. I learned if I made the right choice, things would most likely turn out for the best, if I made the wrong choices, I found out that there were prices to pay for both good and bad choices. This has been a great factor in making decisions now, I know I have to turn it all over to the Power, no matter what the choices are, I must just ask that in whatever it is, that I divorce my will and just trust, that it is what it is, and I just have to deal with whatever I’m presented.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014