How do we find, and understand a Power Greater then ourselves exists, when we reach a pinnacle of disbelief, and doubt, and that nothing other than the power, of material wealth, greed, ruthlessness, loss of morals, inebriation, and lust, fill all the cavities of the brain. We are so consumed, by consumer bombardment, by the media, display of violence, fear and sex, that we become overwhelmed, distorted, and distracted, to the point all we want is something, to alleviate the pain of confusion. These thoughts can become so vivid, that we can’t see through the veil, of vanity and fear. We stop trying to reverse the thoughts of stimulation, and start to distort or natural instincts, and make disastrous decisions, that change the entire spiritual nature of the principles our human soul. If you don’t believe you have a soul, then you live by no boundaries, which separate us from animals. The lack of boundaries, allows us to justify, all the actions we take, to dismantle morals, and values, that leads to a hedonistic way of life, forgetting community, and welfare of all, only to live a self-centered life.
Several spiritual texts warn us of the dangers of feeding the flesh, meaning giving in to those distorted instincts, and how they can lead us down into our own self-imposed Hell. Dante’s Inferno had nothing on the Hell I imprisoned myself too. The demons the mind can create, are appetites that can’t be quenched, needs that are never fulfilled, illusions and hallucinations, that no magic act can imitate. I ran into all the things that are described in all the writings, that existed since print was invented and before. I just couldn’t see the simplicity in just, not doubting, meditate and converse with humility, letting go of distorted ego and low esteem, and start by giving love with no expectation of anything in return. These were the concepts, and principles, of finding, the Power of The Universal Light, that I can’t describe, touch, see, because I am.
PEACE OUT. M

The image we portray must be aligned with the true thoughts we have. It does not benefit our souls if the two are not synchronized. When any piece of our being is not interacting with the other, we are distorting the image we think, or trying to portray. We see so many times, when tragedy happen, neighbors always saying “well they always seemed to be nice people”, this was an image of what they were portraying, but it was not the reality. Few of us are really showing our true side to everyone, we are afraid, that by exposing our true nature, we will be judged, or rejected. I also know that there have been times that what I wanted, or the image that I saw in my head, was untrue. I so desperately wanted to be something on the outside, that did not represent my inside, and this created very conflicted thought. The process to align the images was a lengthy, and arduous task, it first started with coming to understand “what” I was, and I had to surrender to all prior thoughts of what I thought I was, and realize the truth about me. When I understood what that was, I needed to know how to change; armed with the truth I could find the real image to recreate into one cohesive person. This became a long period of reconstruction, and education, and came at great cost, and dedication. This had to be something I really wanted, I had to be prepared to do whatever it took to find whatever the truth would be.
After many years of searching to find answers, and many spiritual experiences or awareness, which I can only see through hindsight, I came to understand that I JUST AM. That I don’t need to align anything anymore, the truth is that I need to be open to life, and accept the gifts I have, and align myself with the power of the universe. There is no more portraying and image making, all there is, is to be happy and who I am. The honest me may not be pretty, but it’s all I have, and I try to give it the best shot, I can. If we are made in perfection, then why do I have to present a distorted view, of what I think they want me to be. One simple principle, HONESTY, of who I am, what I am, and what my God wants me to be, is the continued search. If my heart is true, my intentions good, my faith is unshakeable, and my ears and eyes open, I just might just turn out to be REAL and not an image.