When I made the decision to trust in something greater than me, was the moment I started taking steps, towards working the steps. I didn’t know that at the time, because the decision came after the surrender, which led to being open-minded enough to make that decision. This happened without my knowing it, but in hindsight those 3 things were steps 1, 2, and 3. It amazes me that this was something I was led to. We really begin without a clue of what happens in the working of the steps, you hear it over and over, “I can’t believe that my life is what it is today”. Things change in ways that we truly can’t imagine when we begin the process of utilizing the steps, in all our affairs. I don’t know any other way now but to work the steps in my daily life, when I start my morning with the 11th step, I automatically am at step 1, because it indicates, that I know I am powerless, and that’s why I am turning it all over to something greater than me, and I am surrendering my will to be in control. By doing these simple steps as I start my day, the rest of the process begins by doing a 10th step as my day progresses; I know that I must be vigilant, because of what I am. I am so glad I didn’t know how great of a life I had in front of me, because I would have had expectations, and just maybe my intentions would have been entirely different. The steps I take lead, me down a path to the steps I take. Thanks for making a 12 step on this drunk.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014

Today is a day of great reflection for me. It was my natal and today is my 25th sober birthday. I know that without the program, the steps and the principles, none of this would have been possible. The gift of life always stands in front of me, because of the fact that I tried to destroy myself for so many years. Recovery has taught me what a great life I truly have, if I can stand clear of expectations, and resentments, I can enjoy all that is placed in my path. This year has been one of great personal truth and rewards, after a long arduous struggle with health and active depression, that I had to meet with defiance and faith, that all would resolve itself if I just took actions against my negative thoughts and pain. Pain and depression are two challenging situations that must be treated. In my case I had to work through all of the thoughts that kept me holding on two these two companions. All this was taught to me through active work of the 12 steps, sometimes it doesn’t seem that it will work, but I can testify that it works; it really works, if we work for it. Thanks for making a 12 step call on me.
Peace Out: M Copyright 2014