Reaching out, and asking for help when you reach that place where you can’t seem to find the strength for yourself . This is a difficult, and confusing state to be, it is contrary to all we have been taught since as far back as most of us can remember. We are taught by parents, teachers, and society, that you can do it, just push trough, this is not a bad instruction, if the person giving instructions has a healthy perspective on how to convey it. Unfortunately not all those who are instructors, know how to mentor maturing individuals, the person teaching, may have issues from their past, that have not been addressed.   Molding minds, young or even adult, is an art form, which makes it hard when you have been told to go out and be successful, and that success is based on doing it yourself. What happens to those who don;t, or do achieve? Either way without healthy balance , it can lead to a misguided life which can lead to a place  of disaster to the instincts.  So these messages we received in the past, put us at odds with knowing how to reach out, we end up in, rehabilitation centers, bars, back-ally’s , spiraling because we are too proud, or too ashamed  to ask for help. Sometimes, maybe family tries to intervene, or courts, institutions, friends, but because of that pride or self esteem, we push it away. So many of us die because we are so broken, because we can’t seem to handle it, we have lost faith in everything.

  Those  who have experienced this in past and present , have sacrificed so much  of themselves, too just find the courage to do that one simple act, surrendering to the fact that we needed help, and then carry that message forward! Without that first act of acknowledgement, we may not find the courage to face what needs to come next, which is opening our minds to remove the contempt of all things, and replace it with the hope that comes from the power of trusting. Courage to remove all those old ideas, messages, instructions of the past, that will change our future, these things are the spiritual experience that leads, to a greater consciousness and awareness, of all that is, and surrounds us, which is seeing the gift of our life and how special that gift can be. All that is ours, if can just find the humility to say, I NEED YOUR HELP BECAUSE I CAN”T DO THIS ALONE. Thanks for carrying that message to me.

PEACE OUT!  M

As I write, I don’t want to seem that I am coming from a place that makes it sound, that I think I know something, that I really don’t. I am only expressing what my thoughts are, and this process reveals things to me that I have questioned myself about, and what I believe at the moment I am writing it. I definitively know that, I have many limitations such as, education (formal), skills in writing style, vocabulary, spelling to a degree, like principal and principle and when to use the correct one, knowledge, understanding or awareness of a number of things. This list can go on, but I will stop at that. The things I talk about are those things that I have experienced, or have questions about. I am just a man with the passion of expressing what I have been through and the processes, I have under gone to seek understanding of spirit and I. The longer I search the more questions I have, and I totally understand those who say I just keep it simple, but simple is as big, or as little as the situations that are presented too me.

When it comes to sober life, I have steps that lead me to principles , that lead me to a method to have an awakening, or spiritual experience, or higher conscious, that substances and things are a temporary solution to an infinite problem, which is me and my thoughts. Now that I come to this higher awareness, I realize I must search higher, and higher thought also has its limitations, by the shallowness of my ability to think higher, than my evolution of mind has taken me too at this point in time. Here is where the quote “the journey is in the seeking” and they tell me “that we know only a little, but more will be revealed”.

I don’t want to be stuck in a limited frame work, I want the openness that the universe has in an endless space, where my search is always evolving and always growing, and the knowledge that no one has any more answers or less answers than I. I believe we were designed by the force in nature, that all things in this sphere that we all occupy, are designed to evolve and change. If I had not changed the search or journey I was on, I would not have gotten to this moment, and I love this moment. Who knows the next may not be to my liking, but hopefully I will evolve in the next moment, to meet the one after that!

Peace Out. M