There are so many questions we have when we first come to the room. I never questioned why I was drinking and for most of my life, how do I stop. I can’t tell anyone, what it will take, it’s a question that can be answered only by where are we, and the circumstances of our life, and the lack of answers we have at that moment. This makes things pliable; we may be ready to be molded, by a method that can change our lives. The realization that we have to concede to the depths of our soul that we are Alcoholics/Addicts, and if we drink we will only dig the hole deeper and it may take us to our graves. These are real truths, but yet many of us will ignore this, until it’s too late, we desperately want to control things, and even though we know where the drink always takes us, to lack of control. Then our lives become unmanageable not always on the outside, but most do know what the feelings are inside. It took me 30 years and an enormous of amount of damage to my body, mind and soul, to finally come to that surrender; I truly know that I am one of the blessed. There are so many of us who let this take us down that merciless road of loneliness and despair. Every day in groups around the world the prayers go out for those who live in that hopeless existence of addiction to any substance, that becomes our higher power. Every morning and evening I thank my Greater Power for having mercy on this Alcoholic/Addict and for the gift of giving me a daily reprieve. Thanks for the 12 step call my brothers and sisters.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014

There are so many challenges down this road and every one of us has experienced those days. It seems sometimes that things are never going to change and no one understands, this leads us to depression and fear. I have spent so many days in this place, which was a great reason to drink drug, and I have spent many days there sober to. The difference between the two is when I was drinking the only way out was oblivion, in sobriety the way out is hope, and I often have to work hard to find that hope. I’ve been told that faith without works is dead, and no matter what I have to go to the only place, where hope lies for me. That place is when I start talking with someone that is more stuck than me, and through our moments together, the blessing of hope appears. They told me this in the Big Book, when everything else fails work with another Alcoholic. It’s an amazing healing process, how two individuals working together can heal broken and hurt people. I am so blessed to recognize this in myself, that I must help to be helped, this is the greatest gift I have been given, no matter how lost I can be in life, life will all return by serving or fellow brothers and sisters. Thank you the Spirit of Spirits.
Peace Out: M