As long as I can remember I was always angry. The turmoil inside was always there, no matter how good things were. When I entered the rooms I stayed angry for the first few months. It was around 6 months before the anger started transforming into acceptable conformity. I won’t say that I found serenity, but a truce was begining to formulate. The first phrase that struck me dead center was “contempt prior to investigation” I latched on to that phrase because I identified with 2 things, the contempt to all things, and the everlasting ignorance that came along with it. This quote resonated in my mind and I came around to identifing on a deeper level. My hardest fight was the anger, I don’t no where or when it started, but it was there along with lonliness, and the armour of the Principles has knawed away at them both, but the daily struggle is always with me. I know now that I have 12 defenses against 2 rivals, the rage has settled to a quite chess match.
Peace Out: M 2015

Spiritual reality takes investment of time and energy. The time involved is one’s lifetime. The energy involved is taping into the deepest reserves we have. Trying to remove all the anger, hurt, greed, selfishness, lust, fear, and all the negative aspects of self, that reside inside our hearts and minds, this is a daily exercise. The 11th step is about utilizing the tools of prayer, and meditation to keep a conscious contact with a Power Greater than ourselves. It’s the presence of self that keeps us shaded from the light of Spiritual Awareness. The surrender must come daily, and that surrender is the daily access of faith, the 3rd principle. When we surrender, it is a sign that we are trusting that this is giving way to a better solution than holding on to something that has failed to work. The reality and truth of this is that we only have small victories over the things that bind us to ourselves, but the largest victory we have, is that we lay the ground work for change towards the heart of Spiritual Awareness, which leads us into the realm of walking a spiritual path. The guidelines are as old as man, the walking towards, is up to us. May Peace find you, may you reach for love, may you achieve greatness in the eyes or your truth, and may we share the goodness in the world we all live in.
Peace Out: M 2015