My insanity is sometimes hard to identify, I tend to think that I see the signs, but that’s not always true. There have been times that I think I have serenity, those may be the times that I could possibly be the most insane. My thoughts and perceptions say to me you’re ok, but my mind has a hard time holding on to the reality of moment. This just may be day dreaming, but my day dreams are most likely information transmitted from unconsciousness, to consciousness. It takes a lot of prayer and meditation to try to find the stillness needed to find the conscious of a power Greater than I. Practicing these two avenues are needed to find the saneness, of the inner voice of the true reality, or the identification of my Insanity. The awareness of trying to be open minded enough to know, that if I don’t believe, that saneness only comes through a trust, and faith. My judgments are corrected only by a connection and communication with something, which I have no real conception of what that is. All I have to do is have trust that it has kept me from the madness of destroying myself for many years, and this is where I see, that maybe this is what has given me a reprieve from me.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014

As I was walking today I was struggling when the trail became steeper, I promised myself that I would not stop no matter what. I had to tell myself to not look at how much the incline increased, so I just looked down and started to only look at the way I was walking, and not concentrate on the struggle, but at how I paced my walk at that moment. I stopped searching for the finish line but only on the journey. This is how I have to conduct my life and when I am struggling, I only concentrate on my pace and my perception on what’s in front of me. The destination is not the goal only how I conduct my walk, and my perception of the journey. There are so many who I have watched meet so many challenges, and walk with integrity by putting their head down and just meet the moment and not the situation. Sobriety is so much more than just getting dry, for me it’s been about changing how I walk moment by moment, I can’t look at the inclines only the blessing of being able to walk towards something and not run away from me.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014