I have spent much time holding on to something that doesn’t want you to hold on to it. It doesnt seem to matter how much I want it to be different, it isn’t. The spiritual journey is about learning to give way to on coming traffic generated by my wants. They are vehicles of frustration, fear, anger pride, ego., and desire. Though I can see that letting it go is what is needed, there are larger parts of me that holds on. Recovery is about discovery of ourselves and what we hold on to. My relationship with Alcohol and drugs was as destructive as it gets,, but in spite if the destruction, I couldn’t let go, until there was only one way out, “TOO LET GO.” I am still learning that lesson, by paying the price. Sometimes I measure sobriety by inches, not days weeks or years.
Peace Out: M 2015