Sobriety is not always easy, there are just those days that are hard to find that peace. The days where you can’t shake off the feelings of loneliness, and not feeling a part of. I can search and seach for something to distract myself, but at the end of the day I just have to surrender, and understand that it is just a part of me that I have to balance. These days are the days that the 11th, and 1st steps, are the most important to me, I must continue to find conscious contact with my higher Power, and honestly ask for willingness. I have to do that 10th step to just see my part in the ungrateful state that I am in. I know many will say, “just work with others,” the only glitch there is that I can’t transmit something I don’t have at the moment. I know that I am one of thousands that suffer from depression, and it is a real and debilitating state of mind, but I also know that I can work out of it, with the help of the steps, not everyone can. I must always remember that depression has killed many of us, and if I don’t stay spiritually fit it might kill me.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014