Finding and keeping hope and trust alive within our being is an incredible, sometimes impossible thing to do. There are so many things that come at us like asteroids in space. When your in the meteor shower of confused emotions it feels like it is never ending. Recapturing peace is the answer but for many, where is this peace,? When things are racing around us we tend to blame circumstances and not actions we have taken. It is so easy to point the finger out there and not at my self, I just don’t seem to realize that my decisions and actions have created all things that have impacted me.
My mother always said you should pray and take all things to the power but I never saw a power other than myself, so if all was in disharmony I could I pray to something I really wasn’t sure existed, I deemed I was just talking to myself. I have been in an uncomfortable place in the past few weeks because of a medical procedures, that went badly due to circumstances, that both the Doctors and I had no control over. Now here is where The 6th and 7th step come into place, I am mandated by principles that I must be entirely ready to have GOD as I understand him to remove all defects of character, which in this insistence is doubt, fear, and unwillingness to clear my mind of the fact that it will all be handled in due time. Then I must HUMBLY ask the power to remove my shortcomings, which is just doubt in the power of praying and asking. Now where does more humility come from than having pain, pressure, and fear, and you ass thoroughly kicked! Answer: The humility is in just removing all doubt that what is here and now can be erased by being subjugated to moment to moment FAITH, that all is what it is, and if I take the action in my most desperate moments that everything is covered, because I asked the power to watch my back. There are so many times that GOD has had my back that I should not doubt, but when the wind is blowing the trees sway.
It’s beautiful if I see only beauty, it’s truth only if I believe it’s truth, it’s real only if I believe it’s real, and when I pray I must pray in earnest, and boldly ask for what I need. My prayers have been answered over, and over, and over again. I dare not flinch, I dare not fear, I dare not ever doubt, that I have been carried though this momentary life on the wings of angels and the wind of GODS breath. Peace M