I must always remember that the power is always the source of inspiration, but it doesn’t come if I don’t work for it. Sometimes it’s not always easy to see how the power presents it to us. I realized today that it was delivered to me through someone I care for, but in my blindness of self I was missing the real reason this person was in my life. I was too busy trying to find and make reason, to see the reason. The power is always trying to communicate; the question is am I listening. The message came through to tell me where I was in life, it’s hard to except, that I am ageing when my mind and heart still are looking through eyes of youth. This was a big part of my active alcoholism; before I was behaving as if, I was an adolescent into my midlife. Now that I am in the later portion of my life, the ideas and desires, are still those of youth, but to those who are looking in my direction, are looking at the reality of this illusion I created. This is a harsh thing to accept. Here is where the 12 steps and principles, and spirituality come into play and lead me back to the main focus of my life. I have to see where I am powerless, and not let things become unmanageable because my perception, I must be open to reality and change, and I must accept help to change. I have to look at those things in me that are misguided, and incorrect, and what I’m willing to try to change, and then have the courage to share this with someone. For me I must bring in the spirit of light to illuminate all those misguided intentions, to help me, with this experience of change. Knowing whom I have injured with intentions, and assumptions, and immediately, I must continue to watch out for my behaviors, seek spirit, and serve instead of take and use. It never ceases to be amazing how the Power of the Spirit places persons in front of me, not to see them but for me to see me, and the things I must correct, in order to serve, in the will and spirit that allows me to share the beauty of us. May I spend the time ahead sharing the experience that has been given me, so freely, so lovingly, so profoundly, and so desperately need. Thanks to the friend that brought themselves into my moments, and sheared their moments with me.
Peace Out: M