Our thoughts, our beliefs, our imagination, and our fears, can keep us internally bound to our exterior selves, and the ignorance to a true reality. Our instincts can keep us continuously reaching for illusions, that never fulfill what we think we want or need. We work and strive for inflated dreams, which just keep developing into grasping nightmares. Always grabbing and tugging on distorted emotions, which leave us, never filling the empty lonely shell of our soul. I lived in that universe for so long, and it left me falling into empty space, until I came to an understanding that I suffered from a spiritual malady, this understanding was something that was freely given to me. I understand that, unless I had been given this reality, odds are I would have died, searching for the false dreams. The awareness of a presence which is a Greater than me, of which I can access from within me, and outside of me, has been the greatest realization of freedom and knowledge that I have never known, in all my years on the planet. The knowledge of this power is something I must continuously reach for, by always looking at my choices, intentions, fears, self-centeredness, self-righteous judgments, and if I have the capacity to love others. Sometimes I fail at, and flounder, and try to justify my actions by pointing the finger, but if I can live by the principles, of honesty, open mindedness, and willingness, to see my failings, and my defects, I may just stay free.
I am not trying to state, that I am anywhere near achieving anything resembling saint hood, please note that my being, and spiritual condition, suffer from my human attachment to things, which I ask to surrender, but fail to humble myself to let go. My opinion is that this is the human consciousness, battling the spiritual consciousness, and there are those who choose to dismiss that we even have a spiritual consciousness, well if we don’t then why say my “better judgment won out”. I ask what your better judgment, is considered to be by you. It’s so easy to lay aside issues and say I an agnostic, I am not sure what it is, “I think it’s my intellect”, what the hell is that, the idea that I am my job, my money, my possession’s, my family, are just a result of, a random idea I had that manifested without cause or a higher thought than, “sounds good dude”. We as a species, were given the gift to think out of the box, so why should we not believe, that there are, higher ideas to reach for, that will give relief to a pain driven misery, which is created by the same mechanism that creates, art, music, beauty, that can mystify, please and soothe the erratic thoughts that consume our space? I think all is possible if we reach down, to find the ability to reach up, and grasp the hand that will lift us from the pit of our self-centered ideas to the real paradise of a “Power Greater Than We”. The choice is ours; Take the Blue Pill or The Red One”?
PEACE OUT: M