As I write, I don’t want to seem that I am coming from a place that makes it sound, that I think I know something, that I really don’t. I am only expressing what my thoughts are, and this process reveals things to me that I have questioned myself about, and what I believe at the moment I am writing it. I definitively know that, I have many limitations such as, education (formal), skills in writing style, vocabulary, spelling to a degree, like principal and principle and when to use the correct one, knowledge, understanding or awareness of a number of things. This list can go on, but I will stop at that. The things I talk about are those things that I have experienced, or have questions about. I am just a man with the passion of expressing what I have been through and the processes, I have under gone to seek understanding of spirit and I. The longer I search the more questions I have, and I totally understand those who say I just keep it simple, but simple is as big, or as little as the situations that are presented too me.
When it comes to sober life, I have steps that lead me to principles , that lead me to a method to have an awakening, or spiritual experience, or higher conscious, that substances and things are a temporary solution to an infinite problem, which is me and my thoughts. Now that I come to this higher awareness, I realize I must search higher, and higher thought also has its limitations, by the shallowness of my ability to think higher, than my evolution of mind has taken me too at this point in time. Here is where the quote “the journey is in the seeking” and they tell me “that we know only a little, but more will be revealed”.
I don’t want to be stuck in a limited frame work, I want the openness that the universe has in an endless space, where my search is always evolving and always growing, and the knowledge that no one has any more answers or less answers than I. I believe we were designed by the force in nature, that all things in this sphere that we all occupy, are designed to evolve and change. If I had not changed the search or journey I was on, I would not have gotten to this moment, and I love this moment. Who knows the next may not be to my liking, but hopefully I will evolve in the next moment, to meet the one after that!
Peace Out. M