Holidays are tough for us, especially when we are new. I remember my first, I got sober in October, and my holiday celebrations actually started every year in January and rolled right through to the beginning of the next. What I am trying to say is that I didn’t know any other way to have a holiday with out drinking, so when I stopped I was lost. I had to stay very close to the rooms and my new found fellowship. I went to 3 or 4 meeting’s a day, I even stayed in marathons for hours, just trying to get though another day. I always say that we suffer from “cosmic loneliness,” it’s a common theme for us, there is never enough anything to soothe that feeling, it’s heavy and alienating. This a part of our isolation and disconnect with God. Holidays are still hard for me, but they have become so much better with surrounding myself in the arms of the 12 steps, the rooms, people like yourselves, and the belief that the Power shines through if I just have a conscious contact with the sunlight of the spirit.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014