I was asked very directly by someone with in my first couple of days, if I was willing to go any length to get sober. That was a hard question to ask me at that point, because I really didn’t have a concept of what that really meant. Like a good Alcoholic in early sobriety, I answered “yes”, I had no concept of what rigorous honesty was either. I was just answering as I normally would to any question, as not to look ignorant, which I wasn’t, I was just stuck on stupid. Over the years I have avoided asking anyone in early sobriety that question, until I get an indication that they at least have given themselves a few days, to get some grounding on what they’re answering. Even with in the first or second week of detoxing, the question is ambiguous. In my opinion the insight what’s in store is still a distance. I have seen some of us last a few years, but when life presents itself on lifes terms, that if we don’t have the grounding firmly in the 12 steps we can’t recognize, what that question means. There have been many instances thoughout sobriety that I have had to ask myself that question over and over. We don’t always know what hand we’re dealt. This much I know for me, that I have questioned how far I am willing to go. I am positive that my life is better that it was before being sober, and I am willing to go as far as I have to go for now. Tomorrow is another day, I hopefully will live until tomorrow, and today is almost done, but it ain’t here yet. I will let you know, how far I will go. Thanks for the 12 step call.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014