The realization of when you’re  in fear can be convoluted by by trying to not show fear, or not being honest about my fear. Sometimes I am distracting myself with trying to manifest faith by working on my spritiaul nature, not realizing, that I haven’t removed my fear, I have distracted it. In order for fear to subside I must have absolute faith, absolute doubtless courage, that whatever it is I am in fear about, will be diminished. This is the hardest things for me to achieve, the faith in the abdolute, and that the absolute power erases my doubts (fears). This is where the need to be completely honest with my inner most self, that I really have turned my will, and my life over to something, that I have no doubt in. My fears disguise and trick me, they deceive my thoughts, and I can’t see the forest for the trees. I have done fear inventories, and my ego tells me, that I have removed them, but they are still there, waiting patiently to ignite with the smallest of flame. The vigilant trust is a constant work in progress, I have to live by the progress I have achieved, not the perfection, that I will never have. Thus the life of the Alcoholic that I am, in recovery. Thank God for the 12 steps that call on me to trust that the process works, if I work it. I ain’t scared ….. sure !
Peace Out : M copyright 2014
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