There are moments when I wonder what’s the point, why am I doing this, or where is it leading me? I hear this from people who are usually on the verge of giving up and fall back into old familiar behavior. I have sat there many times in sobriety, telling myself that it’s never going to change, and who cares. This is the classic selfish, self-righteous, self-pity, ego centric, thinking that take us to the brink of depression and fear. When I put myself in that position, I stand in jeopardy of drinking and destruction. When I am in that frame of mind, I must seek out spiritual help, either by praying or taking action though sharing what’s obstructing me. We see every day what happens with those who sit in this mindset, to many great lives are lost because of isolation, and the inability ask for help. It’s hard to release fear, pride, and ego to find the humility, to say the words I, I need help. The conceding to the fact of my inability to find where I had lost my choice, was something that eluded me for years, and it was in the conceding that I came to understand, I needed to be honest, open minded, and willing to ask for help, those 3 principles, changed my mind from contempt, to acceptance, that I had been driven to the brink, I had to move forward or die. Thank you for delivering a message that I no longer had to live a life, on a hopeless path of destruction.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014