Recovery is always about change and the willingness to do so. Every year since I started on this path, I have had to adapt, to circumstances that affect my emotional state of mind. At first it was adapting to life without having the alcohol or substance, to alter my awareness of the moment. This is where introduction to the steps became the most important tools, to learn to use them wisely and effectively, was the biggest adjustment. Putting these tools to use in dealing with my emotions is an ongoing process, because I can’t control something that is usually suppressed within me. Once you remove the thing I utilized as a suppression tool, I was left with raw feelings that I had never learned to handle. We are always a work in progress; the constant vigilance the big book explains is the path to emotional stability needed, for me to live a life in any kind of serenity. Daily work has to be put into action, from the time I wake, until I fall asleep; my emotions are always in play, if I awake without finding some sense of my spirituality, I awake to chaos that I must silence. I must come to believe right at that moment so I can start on the path of adapting to the day in front of me. My emotions are directly affected by my acceptance of the world and surrounding’s; the message has to be delivered to me by the connection I have to initiate, it is my actions that are my responsibility to seek out the Power that is waiting for me to come to it, it is not the reverse. I was told that this is a spiritual program of action, without action, faith without works is dead, no seeking no finding, I will not find if I am not willing to search, my emotional journey is based on honesty, open-minded, and willingness. I must always adapt to where I have placed myself, and deal with the reality that I am responsible, but God is in charge, Powerless.
Peace Out: M Copyright 2014,