I have never been a list maker or a much disciplined person; it has always been a liability for me. I have gone through life, flying by the seat of my pants, always having to have my back against the wall, and then fighting my way out, but what assets I have in this position, is having a strong faith that God has always had my back. I didn’t always recognize this, because I was so self-centered in my thinking, that I believed I was in charge, I was raised with that thought. This took a long time to change, when I found recovery, I was taught, there were things that I never had power over, this was easy to see centering around addiction and alcoholism, but not easy to see on my entire life. I just couldn’t see the total un-manageability of my life at that time, but I could see it when it came to substances. Over the course of the next years, I became more and more aware of the truth of my lack of control over all things except the choices I make. I learned if I made the right choice, things would most likely turn out for the best, if I made the wrong choices, I found out that there were prices to pay for both good and bad choices. This has been a great factor in making decisions now, I know I have to turn it all over to the Power, no matter what the choices are, I must just ask that in whatever it is, that I divorce my will and just trust, that it is what it is, and I just have to deal with whatever I’m presented.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014