Never in my life did I understand what that was. Forever In thought that all love came with conditions; in friendships it meant you watch my back and I’ll watch yours. In relationships with the opposite sex it came tied to sexual pleasures, in family it was an assumed responsibility, with my parents it was they should because I was their son, in business it was what I get out of it. This was such a distortion for me; I never knew how to love without conditions. It didn’t become apparent to me that this was the reason, that my entire life, in abuse was the absence of the true definition of the concept of love. As time goes by and I live in sobriety, I have come to realize the true intent of the 12th step is to carry a message and practice the spiritual principles in all of my affairs the true intent is unconditional. When I try to carry a message, I have to deliver it with no expectations, assumptions, or fear and I can only do this with the faith that there is a greater power behind me, that does love me unconditionally. As I look back this has all been about the realization, that there is love all around me and if I love without expecting anything more than to have awareness, that there are no guarantees in life, except if I can truly love unconditionally, that love is always returning. I must have hope that only way to carry the message is to make an honest effort to come from the same 12th step message of unconditional love.
Peace Out: M