Every day I write, I share only what I feel. This is not me trying to be profound, or thinking I have any wisdom. There is only a deep sense of emotion and honest hope that I have in my heart. My feelings are that we all have a need to touch and reach some higher energy in life. Some of us get lost, hurt, and damaged, along our way and we go inward, to that place with no hope or light, into that room of isolation, and for me that is a painful, fearful, selfish, and a scary place. This is why I write, and am willing basically, to share my life with all; it is out of need not wisdom. The lives I have to live are one of honesty with myself, and watch my intents, judgments, and assumptions. I had to learn this by hard work and experiencing failures, and successes, loss and gains. The lessons of having to constantly seek, listen, and watch for ego, pride, and absorb the teachings of trying to relinquishing my will, to God’s will. I am one of the most undisciplined, self-centered people I have known, and I have been blessed to know thousands in my time here on this planet, and I am not shearing this from ego or pride, but from experience. So I want all to know why I do this and I know I have to deal with others assumptions, criticisms, and the appreciations. I know if we stay dormant in this journey, it leads to stagnation, and that leads to possible tragic behavior. No matter how long I stay sober, I still have to do what I was told to do in the beginning, which was to put down everything on paper, and in this day and age, we have technology and media, and I thank those who taught me to just drop the rock, and make them pebbles, these thoughts are the fragments that are there. The experience of taking the actions and staying out of the results means to me, that I just do it and leave the outcome to God.
Peace Out: M Copyright 2014