On Sunday morning October 8, 1989 I was taken to a meeting of Cocaine Anonymous that was in a room that was a part of Brotman Hospital in Culver City, CA. It was in that meeting I surrender to the fact that I was an Addict and Alcoholic, it was something I had been aware of for a long time but I did not surrender until then. It was something I heard out off one of the readings, entitled “Spiritual Experience”, the quote was “There is a principle which is bar against all information, which is proof against all arguments and which cannot fail to keep a man in everlasting ignorance – that principle is contempt prior to investigation”, For whatever reason it just brought forth my real attitude towards life, which was my judgmental nature about everything. I had been in the state of mind where I had contempt for everything, including any Spiritual concepts all that meant anything to me was the lie I was living. I became just open minded enough to see the real me, a true addict/alcoholic. This was where my judgments had led me down the path as I call it, “the rabbit hole”. Today one of my problems is still judgment of people, places, and things, and this can have problems, and create situations, that cause me to pull myself back, and investigate where my judgment was wrong. The blessings are that I have been given information, and tools to redirect my thinking and actions. It’s this defect of judgments that does make me ignorant to the real truth, if I let myself rush to assuming things that aren’t really true. I can truly say that my rush to judgment’s and contempt are better, but I can judge my own self into contempt, and keep myself in the ignorance of the truth.
Peace Out: M copyright 2014