For so many years of my life I was always looking from the inside out, always thought that what was out there, was what I need. Constantly reaching for the outside to fix the inside, but there was nothing that filled the empty hole, that hole always needed to consume more and more and there was never enough. It’s been a hard lesson to learn that solutions to my problems are never solved by looking outside, they have to be solved by my inside view looking even deeper inside. I have to stand past the thought of me to hear the silence of the stillness, of the space beyond space. This is not a metaphor for me this is true, when that inside thought collides with everything that it thinks it knows, it has to hear the truth, that whatever I think is, really is not, whatever happens in this moment is now gone to the next. I must not plan the next thing because there are millions of things that can change, this I know deep inside, but living without planning is virtually impossible, living without expectations is impossible, living without assuming is the hardest of all, because we even assume that we will wake tomorrow. Here lies the denial that still exists within me, even if I say that I am living in the trust of the Power, why am I having expectations? Without expectations there is no life, or even the next moment, this is a mind bending thought. Living the concept of “one day at a time” is truly the principle that I must remember, I was blessed with today it is all that I do have, and tomorrow is now another day that I will have to look inside for the deeper thought which stills from within, I pray that I have the presence of the Power to guide me into where ever I’m supposed to go, that is what Faith truly is.
Peace Out: M