There are so many things that I have had to walk away from, and I truly know how hard this can be. I am currently trying to learn another lesson of this; there are things that come with each day. Those things that we love or want, creates many anxieties, and infiltrates of all our senses, we need to connect and learn to disconnect; this is survival on the deepest level. I have had to walk away from the loss of family, the loss of my wife and the possibility of my children, the loss of some of my dearest friends, loss of lovers, loss of my love for drugs, and alcohol, and the list goes on. This is life on its most sincerest level, and it happens to all of us, life is about letting go of the things we love the most, but even with all those things, I have learned to just keep walking forward, I have to walk with or without you, it’s seldom by choice, it’s by necessity. Survival instinct is the greatest, of them all, it over rides all the rest of our natural instincts.
We can see there are those who have sacrificed for another at great cost, but at that moment the decision must be unbelievable difficult. The sacrifice of one, for the good of others, I have to ask how many make that choice truly. This is where courage is a supreme ideal, there are many who have made this honorable choice, but those are a minority considering the billions. That is why we have deep admiration towards them, because the instinct of survival is number one, everyone knows this thought. For me the ability to walk away has become a natural experience, I am not sure if is courageous or cowardice, neither is the choice it is just instinct. I do know that my survival is by Grace only, I often ask why, God has let me survive, sane and sober, and it’s not for me to challenge the will of that power. I have just learned that sometimes I just have to walk towards it, and sometimes I have to walk away from it, which is it today? I also have learned that a Power Greater Than Me helps me live with that choice, if I just sit still, so I can walk towards it, or away from it. I have to have that Light to guide me in the darkness of that moment. This is another lesson that the infinite wisdom, of all those who have gone before me, with the Power of the Spiritual principles give me, their courage to do either one.
Peace Out: M