How do you go about living with yourself after years of abusing everything that you came into contact with along your way, is one of the first questions I asked, when I arrived to the rooms. Most of us, even in the surrender process, have doubts about forgiving others, or they forgiving us, for our actions in our past. So we arrive with anger or shame, victimized by both, and not knowing which one to choose to be the victim of. My experience became, that when I was directed to the tools, I needed to relieve these two afflictions, and rectify all that stood in my way, and kept me from the absolution that my soul so desperately NEEDED. It was that absolution, which made it possible for me to work towards forgiveness, and to relieve those burdens I carried, for so long, I was told to “drop the rocks, and make them into pebbles”. Learning the steps and principles, seems to be a very difficult thing to accomplish, but the truth, and faith, are the only things, that will set us free from our shame and fear. I don’t and won’t, ever believe that my God or the understanding Power is a punishing and angry entity; there is always forgiveness, as long as I’m breathing. The action taken is where the healing begins, when I move towards the light, amazingly the sun starts to shine, and when I’m in the warmth of that light, I leave the chill of darkness, self-pity and shame, outside of me. This was only made possible through action and prayer; I had that desperation of a drowning man, who needed help and direction. You go on living past the shame, past the fear, past the remorse, past self-pity by applying those spiritual acts, of forgiveness, love and tolerance. Forever learning to love, learning to care, learning to serve, and learning to reach, for the Grace of the Power, is where forgiveness begins and thrives. Thank you for the light of the universe.
Peace Out: M