I read that the human heart will not be put off, it needs reconciliation, forgiveness, and assurance, and I know that, from my experience of my life. Without it I probably would not have survived my indiscretions, my abuse, and my behavior, my heart need to be forgiven for all the mistakes I have made. I needed to know that there was forgiveness, and a loving energy, to resolve my self inflicted torture, that I had lived. Life had come to that point in time that I had dug a hole so deep that I could never have lifted myself out of , without the help of a Greater Power. Up until that point I had no idea what my true self was. I was made up of an array of characters , that were created to fit all the different situations that I had been involved in throughout my 41 years prior. I know now what a  gift it is to know my life, as I know it today, but that knowledge came with a price!

I never valued this gift before now, it all seemed so useless, that is what self will gave me. A distorted view and twisted values that led me down the hole. There are so many things that I must acknowledge that brought me to me, the biggest one being Grace from the forgiving Energy. Another is the practice of spiritual principles, and the help of selfless people, who took the time to carry a message to me, and love me. For all those things in unity brought the reconciliation,forgiveness, and assurance, that has carried me in this journey. 79 years ago today there was created a design for me and countless others, who have been delivered one moment at a time to a new way of looking at the world from the perspective of people with mended hearts. For this I am eternally grateful and forever indebted to give back what I can never repay.  Thank you God and the 12 steps. Peace out M