Today was amazing as is everyday. I received 5 calls from persons I haven’t talked with in quiet awhile. Each call was rather long but beautiful in it’s own way and at the end of each they said I love you with sincerity. Now most of them were people I met in the past year, and I thought to myself and felt in my soul “gratitude”. When I first came in to the program I used to hate that word, it seemed to flowery for someone as hip as me. Now I admire the men and women that so freely shared their feelings on how things had made them change and how grateful they had become. I have had a few who my postings have either offended, or made them think I am angry, or insane. Maybe I am all three, it’s up to them to decide. I know what is in my heart and i know what I am trying to convey, to them that it is relevant, and to them that it is not, it is what I am compelled to do at this time. My daughter said ” some of it sounded like I am rambling”, and she is right I AM, but I want to shout. I have spent my life trying to manipulate things by skirting and dodging, and being untruthful to me. I am just in the lifeboat with all of you trying to row ashore and I am glad to be there. So please note that I am not trying to hurt anyone I am just trying to be myself and that’s a full time job. Your comments are welcomed and so is criticism “No one can steal my joy” a quote from one my oldest and dearest friends Hollywood Doc.

Peace Out. M